Write Your Story On My Heart

July 17, 2014 — 2 Comments

Hi Lovers,

I heard this song today on the radio and I knew she was speaking to God. I often struggle since returning to Christ with being this empty vessel and at the same time a woman with great dreams and personality and will. In the past I knew that I was destined for great things because I had this inner confidence that no one could steal. But when I returned to church I worried that that quality was possibly arrogance. Though I once had an elder pray over me and say “you know the difference between confidence and arrogance and because of this God will use you for great things”. Still, I have lived very close to narcissists in my lifetime and a part of me is afraid that this confidence when met with success will slowly turn into “I Am A god” . (warning the link to the song is awful but I use him as an example because he started off with “Through the Wire“, oh Kanye).

I did have another elder pray over me and say that God is giving me a scepter to declare and do great things but that I shouldn’t worry about success because He will keep me on my knees (prayer).  So why do I still have this internal struggle? I don’t know. I guess because I’ve been to the dark side but at the same time I have seen the glory and power of God. This is a season of learning to trust Him and that all things are used for the glory of God. But it’s also a season of learning to walk in the fullness of who I am and not be apologetic about it. Because I have dimmed who I am for many many years out of fear of people hating me too. How do you balance this?

Lord, write your story on my heart and I will follow.

2 responses to Write Your Story On My Heart

  1. 

    As it says in Philippians 4, begin now to pray WITH thanksgiving. Thank God for EVERYTHING. The peace of God that passes understanding will then protect and guard your mind and heart. It’s important to protect our minds so we don’t become fearful, confused, nervous, anxious, fretful, etc. Indeed, we must protect our mind so we don’t lose it! It’s also important to protect our hearts so we don’t begin to love that which is not good for us. We do this by thanking God. This shows that we are trusting Him. Trusting God is what the Christian life is all about.

  2. 

    You’re right. Thank you for the reminder on thanksgiving Kathleen.

Love.

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