I’m currently 22 weeks pregnant and enjoying every second of it. The day I found out was pretty funny. Clarence was out of town for work and I decided to watch this random 80s movie, “She’s Having A Baby“. I remember towards the end of it the thought crossed my mind that I should actually take a test. So I drove to CVS and bought a test, I actually thought I should get the pack with 2 for some reason so that’s what I got. Next, I stopped by the library because I had to drop off “The Girl With No Shadow“. Since I had the tests I decided to take one. It’s a good thing I listened to that inner prompting to buy the 2-pack because as I waited for the first test result I accidentally knocked it on the floor when I stood up. Don’t ask me how, I found a way. When I picked the test up it flashed “?” over and over.
I drank some water and left for home. Then, I drank some more water and waited. I had this feeling that the second test was going to say yes. And it did! It was the most surreal moment of my life when I read the “yes”. Although I knew this day would come one day, there was no way of knowing when or how it would happen. My response? I stood in my bedroom and then dropped to my knees and said “Thank you Jesus” over and over. I didn’t plan to do that lol, it just happened. Then I text Clarence with the word “EMERGENCY”. In hindsight it may not have been the best way to get his attention but I had to get it… ASAP.
Now that I’m in my second trimester I’m getting the urge to start preparing our place for her. I know she will be here in no time, especially with all of the holidays coming up during the third trimester. Her expected date of arrival to this planet is January 29th, 2017. And she has just started kicking me in the gut this week. Also, she’s appeared in my dreams twice so far. I saw her at around the age of 5 and then again around the age of 6 months. I have to be honest with you all. In the first trimester I had several non-vegan meals. I had this urge to eat things I normally would never eat. I realize that’s the second time I’ve used the word urge in this paragraph, but there’s no other way to describe it. I told Clarence that this baby eats more like him for sure. After searching plant based pregnancy forums I read enough from other expectant moms to know this isn’t anything unique. Many women crave or have a drive to eat animal products when they didn’t before.
Those urges have subsided and I’m back to eating the way I have been. I don’t feel guilty about it. But I chose to let go of guilt when it comes to food a while ago. Eating plant based and avoiding caffeine, alcohol and processed sugar is the path I’ve been on for a while now and actually supports my pregnancy because I have fibroids. You know my doctor told me last year that I would have to get surgery if I ever wanted to get pregnant because of them. But instead, I prayed and also searched for ways to heal naturally. Every road pointed to eating plant based and avoiding the things I’d given up. I actually just finished an insightful e-book from a Amy McKnight who ate plant based with fibroids during her first pregnancy. She went on to have a beautiful birth experience and shares her ways on her site The Fibroid Fight .
Every baby is truly a miracle and every baby has a purpose, no matter what your journey may be. I want to encourage all of you who are trying and may have run into heartache or what seems to be a never-ending battle to get that “yes” result. Though I didn’t experience losing a baby, it was a struggle for over a year with my fibroids and now she’s on her way. So please keep the faith, and listen to your gut. If you need to let something go, let it go. If you need to do something differently, do it. Deep down you know. Listen to those promptings, take care of yourself and only speak positive affirmations over your womb, yourself and this experience. xoxo